I can understand feeling unworthy of hugs and support. I was abused, made to feel unworthy. I worried nobody would ever hug or care. At times I still struggle with asking for a hug. I put on a tough front.

Sorry, I don't mean to pry and if your not comfortable discussing it's okay. Did you a have a traumatic experience growing up ( abuse, neglect)? I would explore how you are feeling with your T. I know sometimes it's difficult to open up. I hope she can provide you with insights and reassurance.