I would think paranoia like that could come from trauma in your past maybe? Major betrayal? I think it would be good to accept these feelings but not give into them. Also, respect yourself and respect your feelings too? Have you been able to tell the difference between gut feelings and paranoia? I have a hard time trusting my own instinct and sometimes I can’t tell if I’m being paranoid or there’s a reason for my feelings. I’m working on this too. My gut feelings are always right.