I think puzzclar is right, baby - in that after awhile if we want to keep out of the hospital we will need to learn some coping mechanisms. Puzzclar has his/hers, I have mine, hopefully you will develop yours, slowly but surely.

Sure, I am constantly anxious. The only time I'm not horrendously anxious, muddled, and/or depressed and confused is in the split second after I wake up. Otherwise I'm dealing with it all the time. I have my tools, some of which are described in the "STOP" technique that puzzclar posted in this thread.

For example, let's say I'm you, and I'm going to cook dinner. All of a sudden I freak out. I don't know what the f--k to do. I'm spinning out. I'm..... What I do then is STOP. I take a couple of deep breaths. I focus on my breath. Then I ask myself, what is the next step in my process. Let's say I've chosen a recipe. I go get my recipe. Next? I gather together my ingredients. Then the next step. And the next. Keep breathing. Slow down. Take the steps, as many as you can.

Then give yourself some credit for getting even that far.

Many, many hugs. Many positive thoughts. Keep sharing what's going on with you if you can.