Bullying is one of the most f-ed up things to go through. I was also bullied.. By my abuser who was abusing me. And one day I "saw red" its actually true. I didnt realize what id done. As he was punching my face like a man I grabbed a butcher knife off counter behind me... I had NO clue . fight or flight... It took 20 to 30 min for me to realize or snap out of it.. Id had enough I suppose.