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Originally Posted by chihirochild
I sent T a message saying that I was furious with him and to cancel my next session. He sent me this email back. It didn't make me feel any better. I don't even know what to feel. I'm just so sad and angry that right now when I'm being asked to do things in my professional life that are ACTUALLY INSANE I have a therapist who is unable or unwilling to give me the kind of support I need.
Hi [c],
I hear how angry you are. Of course it is your decision to cancel the appointment, which I know you have had to do in the past as well in order to take care of yourself.
Personally, I am sad that we will not be meeting, especially given what has been happening in our sessions lately. I am also feeling worried about how things seem to be proceeding with us. At the end of our session yesterday, it sounded like you were even questioning whether or not you even should be continue meeting with me for therapy, given how badly you are feeling after our sessions these past few times. I am guessing that is part of the context of why you are cancelling on Friday. I just wanted to express my continued commitment to working with you, as well as my willingness to shift my approach to meet your needs in the treatment. In the past when these sorts of things have come up between us, we have been able to find a way through it together, in a manner that I believe has ultimately helped you in your life. I am hopeful that this will be able to happen again.
If you change your mind, please let me know, as I would still like to try to see you.
Take care,
[T]
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If I didn't know that we live in different locations, I'd swear your T was my T. Because the part I bolded sounds eerily like things he's said to me before, like when we were in rupture. How we've worked through things together before and he's confident we could do it again. Either right before I briefly terminated or right after I came back, I told him how yes, we worked through things, but it was also incredibly painful, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to do that again. And how it's so much more difficult for me than him. So I get it...and it sucks... I'm sorry. You need support right now, not...whatever this is.
