A guy i used to work with 25 years ago texted me last night. He's super smart and handsome and lots of fun. Pretty sure he's married now. It seemed like he just wanted to say hi. Perhaps he was just bored due to the virus. Things were going okay until he said he's gained a few pounds and has more grey hair. That scared me right off because i've gained 100+ pounds and am totally grey. I don't really want anyone from my old life to know what a mess i am now and how sad my life is so i didn't reply and he didn't persist and that's that. Still nice to know that he remembered me and took action to contact me. That i exist for him.

Insomnia again today and all i got done was take my dog for a walk. So disabling, not sleeping well.