If I didn't know that we live in different locations, I'd swear your T was my T. Because the part I bolded sounds eerily like things he's said to me before, like when we were in rupture. How we've worked through things together before and he's confident we could do it again. Either right before I briefly terminated or right after I came back, I told him how yes, we worked through things, but it was also incredibly painful, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to do that again. And how it's so much more difficult for me than him. So I get it...and it sucks... I'm sorry. You need support right now, not...whatever this is.