Hello Everyone~
Newbie Here

We were sitting in the truck last night with my daughter (age 5) right before my sons (age 13) baseball game and my husband said to me "I've been praying about my issue with not wanting to make love to you because of your weight".

Okie dokie, well I knew for months now something has been up. I try to talk to him about it and he said it was stress.

Yes I am overweight, and duh I know the simplest of solutions is to LOOSE WEIGHT stupid ..... it'd solve the problem.

Well, would it, I wonder. I am only 10lbs over what I have weighed for 4 years now since my daughter was born ( I did put on weight and lost some, but held steady at a certain weight and am now 10lbs over that).

I know I need to loose weight and I WILL!
I've done it before, I can do it again.
It just hurts knowing that. Would he accept me if I had a breast removed or would he think it is disgusting.
I am sure that he is part mad because he might think I am doing NOTHING about it, but I am watching what I eat, I just don't have any energy or motivation to exercise.

However I am so bitter now that when I do loose weight I don't want him to think it was for him and I don't even know if I'd want him to touch me again.

I'm not even sure if that is completely the entire truth or problem he is having with me. (My weight I mean) I think he is going through some mid-life crisis thing.

He IS very stressed at work, hardly home. I've had to take on a lot lately (no I don't work).

I have been on & off depression meds for over 20 years now. He doesn't understand depression, I have agoraphobia it triggers panic attacks. A year 1/2 ago he took a job out of state, in 3 days we were moving. Away from ALL my family & roots for 30+ yrs. To a new state no family or friends & still not in church. So YEAH!!! I've gained some weight!!

Now I am a Christian and I will forgive him as I should. It just stings right now and I needed to let it out.

Sorry So Long ~ Thanks for letting me vent. Bless You All!