I loved emailed him. It really helped me connect to both him and myself in a way that is much healthier than the other stupid %#@&#! I do at night. I told him how the email serves as a way for me to perserve my feelings in the moment-- so that he knows exactly what I am feeling and there is no loss. So many times I go into session and I cannot recapture the feeling of a particular time.

When he emailed me back I almost just started to laugh because I'm not used to T in text form. I mean, it's been two and a half years and it has always been in person or on the phone.

I spoke with him twice today and he told me that I can email as much as I need to, but just not to be offended at his brief repsonses because he prefers to have the emails and really think about them so we can deal with the issues face to face. I said that was fine, as the emailing was more about a process for me and a way to connect. I completely agree with him because there is so much that can be said in the non verbals.

Did I ever mention I love my T?