I'm not sure of the correct label or if getting that right matters. I think the important part is how it makes you feel.

I have noticed over time you are very concerned with everyone else's judgment and perception of you. My best advice would be to shift your focus inward. Focus on being the best Fuzzy you can be. Not by other's standards, but by your own. Become someone you can love and accept unconditionally and then it won't matter what others think of you. As a bonus, people tend to respond in a positive way to people who have a healthy and loving sense of self.

There are infinite reasons to be here, but you can only see them when you stop blocking your view.

I am sorry that you would have little support in a crisis. That must feel unsettling. I know there are many here that do and will support you however we can.