Yeah, I am much better now. My cycles can be like yours, extremely short, a few minutes, hours, days, weeks, months. Several times a day is very exhausting for me and those around me, very hard to keep up with as you say, you never know where you're going to be 5 minutes from now. Funny thing is, I didn't even realize how fast I was cycling lately until somebody online pointed it out to me. Me, doing fabulous??? Not sure why you would think that, I think anything but is more like it. Tip? Ok, I agree with your honesty comment, honesty is very important to me and what's the point in me not being honest about what I'm feeling, don't know how you think I still have a sense of humour while in the abyss. Did you read my thread 'The Monster' in the General section. Scary stuff indeed. I barely made it out that night, very much considered visiting the ER, something I rarely do. Not sure I deserve those kudos but thanks!!! It's kinda difficult for me to ever feel good about myself but I feel good that you seem to like my postings, scrambled as they are.

I have done the spending money like crazy, no pun intended, while depressed (don't do this anymore). Like I previously stated, I know the pure exhaustion of changing cycles within minutes of the last. I used to do it about 30 times a day before I was on a mood-stabilizer. It was pure hell. I couldn't stand it. It just took way too much out of me. I can still quite often cycle several times on a given day but nowhere near the 30. Still exhausting but far more bearable than before. But as you said, very hard on those around us, even those very close to us that are BP, rapid cyclers but not near as rapid as us. Makes for an *interesting* relationship and sometimes challenging. My GP told me quite some months ago that BP is the hardest of any of the mental disorders to deal with due to the changing cycles. Oh well, whatcha gonna do, that's what we got so we have to learn to deal with whatever it kinda throws at us and hope that there are no casualties along the way. That is the hard part, the effect it has on others, especially while hypomanic manifesting as anger, irritability and hostility. Sure don't like that one but it does rear it's ugly head unfortunately. The euphoria is absolutely WONDERFUL and wouldn't want to give that one up. I've learned to not put myself in any harm while in that state. Now, I just have to learn how to deal with the others in a more productive way. I think I may understand the mixed states a little more now, but still kinda hard to grasp, at least with my fried brain.

Sounds like you're liking the forums. That's good. Nice to have another rapid cycler around to bounce things off of.

BTW, I have a fave smilie that I use to demonstrate the mood changes.

Up and down, up and down, where she lands, nobody knows.