Hi everyone! I have been reading through your posts and sending love and hugs to those in need. I know it's not much, just words from afar, but my heart is with you.

This has been a tough week for me. As the anxiety over my covid-19 panic over who I can and cannot see eased my body got sicker. By Wednesday I was utterly exhausted, in a lot of pain and discomfort, unable to sleep, and unable to read, listen to music or watch TV. So, I did a lot of meditation. Over the last few weeks I have meditated for at least an hour a day. It can be very difficult, but once I get in the zone I become free from my suffering. With nothing else to do sometimes I meditate for over two hours at a time. I have been reading up on different techniques and philosophies. It has been my lifeline as I have had to drop out of university completely and with that came waves of despair. The meditation helps calm me, ground me, and provides positive experiences like moments of bliss.

Since yesterday my body has begun feeling a little better. It is manageable now. Not unbearable like before. I just spoke to my pdoc and he wants me to keep taking Ritalin as it gives me cognitive benefits that help me do things that bring me joy and knowledge ... and tidy my flat. As the anxiety has calmed down I am actually doing pretty well mentally. I was living an isolated life before coronavirus so I am used to spending a lot of time alone. I do miss my sister, nieces, and nephews though. On the plus side I have been in more contact with friends than usual. Either me checking on them or them checking on me. We all need to look out for each other, especially in times like these.