My mental state today is unstable and not ok. I've been awake about two hours and felt like crying, cried, excited, happy, angry, paranoid, horny, isolationist, and rebellious. It's like everything is going haywire inside my head and I don't know what I'm doing. I tried to meditate but that turned very dangerously psychotic. I don't know what I'm doing right now. Things keep spinning and focusing and I've lost my self-control. Send me some good energy please. I'm a mess today. Going to try playing Arkham Knight for a while to distract myself. I need but don't have a prn or anything for this. I'm even out of kava. I'm fairly sure this is insanity at its finest.