Mountaindewed, try to remember the more optimistic things...for example, most people who get sick they get better and dont need to be hospitalized. Keep that optimistic thought in your head.

I am coping okay. Been a little triggered because my bio dad who is NPD texted me this morning to see how I am. He hasn't contacted me in almost a year. I didnt respond. At least not yet. Not sure I can deal with him or that I care to deal with his BS.