I’m not sure if this helps at all, but I imagined a relationship with my T for a while. I didn’t tell him how I felt because I was scared he would reject me, but Something biggish happened and the words just fell out of me. Of course, he rejected me in a romantic way, but it broke down the fantasy relationship I had with him. In a sense, it made our real relationship better...because telling the truth is such an intimate thing to do.