Last year around this time, my case manager called and said she wanted to see me right away. As in, get in the car and be here within 15 minutes. I arrived and within a few minutes she exclaimed, "You're MANIC!" I was so taken aback that she would say something like that, in that TONE, that I just quipped, "No I'm not..." But I was secretly wondering to myself if I really was. Some time after that my pdoc called to "adjust" my meds. e.g. drug me into submission so I couldn't move! Another time someone told me if I'd stop talking about being bipolar that I wouldn't have the symptoms anymore! Or my mom loves to tell me things like, "just go to bed. You'll feel better in the morning"! This is probably why almost every single time I see pdoc she asks me how I'm doing right away I always just say, "Oh good". It takes a lot for me to actually say, "I think I'm manic"- if I'm that coherent to begin with.