Yes, Fuzzy, anger frightens me. If I'm around two people obviously angry, raising their voices and so forth, I just want to retreat ANYWHERE - jump under a table and suck my thumb, or something.

I hate it when anger arises in myself because I have a terrible time with the expression of it. I can always feel myself losing it, whereupon I go into a slide, raise my voice, and say and do things that in about 2 seconds I am very sorry for and would give anything to take back. One of my therapists told me I had a nasty streak. I do. I get mean, sarcastic, cutting.

And then -- the guilt and fear start in. What will be the consequences? What will be the pushback?

So I've tried very hard to learn to control and titrate the expression of my anger.

Hugs to you: