Heya, Crook.

I have also been having very scary, violent thoughts of suicide lately. To fight them I distract myself with activities of various sorts. I like music, but it doesn't really get me out of my mind. So with a push from my T I have taken up journalling again, focusing on 3 things that went well for the day. I get out and go for a walk (or a bike ride). I do some kind of art. Read a book. I also share poetry with my wife, but mirroring that might be difficult. Maybe you could go poetry hunting for yourself. Find some zen poems then use them as a template to write your own. You could share them here. I, for one, would love to see a thread dedicated to member poetry.