In 30 years of treatment and countless hospitalizations, some lasting as long as a year, I can count on one hand the number of visitors I've had. It was a decision made with in consultation with my psychiatrist. We decided visitors would be a detriment for me. It was a smart decision in retrospect. I am glad no one saw me that psychotic. It made reentry back into life much easier.

In fairness, I was in the hospital for breast cancer treatment and I never wanted visitors either. Who wants to be watched while they are throwing up from chemo?