WARNING: This is about how I'm feeling about the "situation" and how it's affecting me, a person with bipolar I. The purpose of this post is to share my feelings and how "the situation" is impacting my daily life and in return, receive some support or empathy and help others who might be feeling the same way. This post, however, is not to upset people and is related to me and my personal experience.

I've been experiencing insomnia again (starting the past couple weeks). I feel very anxious, and I've been having "the situation" nightmares. I know it's impacting a lot of us and we all feel deeply (especially being bipolar). I started taking trazodone again (100 mg) and it helps me fall asleep (take it an hour before bed time) but I'm still waking up in the middle of the night multiple times and I'm starting to have nightmares that I got "the situation" or related to "the situation" in one way or another.

Loss of sleep and sleep disturbance is a trigger for me...usually I start feeling hypomanic and then I know an eposide is coming on! This is different, however, I feel anxious all day, everyday. I'm working from home (which I'm grateful that I still have a job) but I don't do well not being able to socialize with people like coworkers. It's just not the same skyping/texting. I set up a zoom meeting with my family tonight so I think I will be doing more of that with friends too.

I'm worried that I may have an unexpected episode. This would definitely be the worst timing! I have an appointment with my Pdoc on Thursday (video) and will schedule weekly followups if available.

I did find this article which is helpful as it outlines ways to help with "the situation" related anxiety and insomnia:
Coronavirus Worries Keeping You Up? Coronavirus Anxiety-Related Insomnia?

How are you guys feeling?