1. Schizophrenia, I've had the symptoms for about 6 months now, although I doubt that I am it's a strong possibility, as I've had alot of people informing me that I have been talking to myself for several minutes on end.

2. Self esteem, this has allways been a big issue for me. As a child I went to a mainly expatriate school and as a result, many of my friends returned to thier home countries every year, leaving me to build up my friendship group almost on a yearly basis, although I only ever managed about two per year. This combined with the fact that I was severely bullied led to my low self esteem.
I've recently come out of the closet and had three of my best friends abandon me completely, which has only made the situation worse.

3. Social Phobia, this ties in with my low self esteem, making it harder for me to meet new people. I'm absolutely terrified about what people think of me, and if I'm left on my own with a person I'm not familiar with I'm afraid of not being able to say anything interessting and awkward silence. This fear has lead me to drink excessivly, to the point being paraletic at social event's in order to try and relax, and in one extreme case I had to be taken to hospital, where my heart actually stopped beating for about 30 seconds.

As to what I'm going to do about it? I honestly don't know apart from therapy.