I maybe a little low. Which my pdoc and T know about. I've been trying to sleep through it when I get depressed at night. I tend to be okay around people I know. Still wanting to but detracting myself. When I'm alone it tends to be a grounding thing to the things I think and hear, like a "See you're okay."/hyper-focus on something else other then the feelings and thoughts. The ice thing may work for that. I've tried the 5 senses thing, coloring. staying where I'm siting, music, repeating "You're okay, it's okay, everything's fine.". Maybe painting on myself will work. H gets worried anything I do out of the ordinary. I'll try the rubber band thing too.

As far as self care I need to start eating regularly, comb my hair, shower and brush my teeth but that all sounds to tiring. Plus a lot of those things I need help with and it seems like I'm a bother to H right now. I asked for help cooking and I got "Have Miguel cook,"