Thank you! that was very helpful to read!
I started working on some assignments after (assignments that were enough to distract me for a bit), and right now I’m at the point where if I think about myself with a girl sexually, I feel butterflies and if I think about being with a girl romantically, I feel butterflies and am not repulsed and this combined with me calming down is starting to make me think I’m accepting that I’m bi or something, but I don’t want to accept that. Because I don’t want to be bi. I like only liking guys. I was fine just a few minutes before all of this happened and now with every girl I see, butterflies. I wish I could rewind time back to before that all happened.