Ohm stahrgeyzer--I am very concerned about you. Stopping meds can be quite dangerous. If you are having SI struggles, please call the crisis line. There are probably several where you live, given the huge population. If you can't find one, just go to your local ER. They will take care of you.

If you are found to be a danger to self, they will keep you at whatever facility they either have, themselves, or refer to.

But don't even think about that. Don't worry about that stuff--just go. Take care of yourself.!!! Please!!! You can sort everything else out later.

Sending hugs and love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!