I just want to not be manic anymore. I'm sick of flipping out every five minutes and wanting to rip my skin off and just feeling like an out of control, rabid animal. It's injection day and I'm afraid I'm going to freak out and get hospitalized. I don't need another $5000 bill, to miss the beginning of my summer job, and to get coronavirus. I feel like I'm suffocating in my own heat.