I have officially snapped in this coronavirus situation. I was handling it pretty well since I am naturally an introvert and don’t like going out anyway (except to eat). But now my state governor has shut down all state and county parks. Also, my township shut down all ITS parks. NOW I feel ****ing trapped. I can’t even go to a ****ing park? AND the governor keeps saying he thinks the lockdown will go well into summer. I’m freaking out. I want to go hiking and to the beach and ****. Why couldn’t this have happened over the winter, when it was cold?

And I’m increasingly worried because I’ve also been reading that this could go on until a vaccine is developed. Like, we could stamp out the virus, but as soon as we loosen restrictions it pops up again and we go back into lockdown. This could potentially go on for 18 ****ing months.

The closing of the parks has tipped me over the edge. I want to see my family. I haven’t seen my grandparents since February (bc I got sick with that nasty sinus infection). Video chatting is nice but I need to see everyone in person.

I do have virtual therapy tonight, so I hope she can calm me down.