Hi Niemand, and a big fat *Welcome* to the BP forum! I'm sooo glad you posted. I understand that it's not easy, I just read posts anonymously for months before I decided to just jump in and give it a whirl. I mean really...it's not like you all know me or anything, right? So I figured, what's the worst that could happen? And there was just so much being said that I wanted to get in on. And like you, I keep to myself. Well actually...that's putting it mildly...I'm pretty much a recluse. I go to work and I come home, period! I have a couple of friends who will come over and visit with me on the weekends. We like to play poker on the computer. It's fun. The truth is...I love being a home body. I'm comfortable here. I love my home. I have my dog that I just *adore*!! And we go for walks everyday. I like keeping to myself. My life has become *very* uncomplicated. It's not that I hate people, I don't, but I have a hard time feeling comfortable around most of them. I can't really relate to them. I feel more alone in a crowded room than I ever did at home by myself. I'm not a shy or bashful person, I've got something to say to just about anybody. In truth, people fascinate me, but from a distance. If I do feel the need to get out and do something, I go to the movies. I'm surrounded by people, but in a dark place with a very large distraction. We laugh together, we cry together, we get scared together...we're all experiencing the same thing so there's some kind of connection there, but no interaction. I like that. But now, I have PC too, and this is a little more interactive, which I think is healthy for me. I like coming here, I like reading the posts and I like being able to correspond with the poster. Very Cool!

Keep posting Hon, we want to hear from you. And as someone who keeps to themselves a lot, this is important for you. TgrsPurr.