When we feel this low, our addictions get triggered. This dumb virus is messing up a lot of things. Please be kind to yourself and take care of you! When I don't take care of me, my addiction can take control. And the sooner that realization happens, one can see progress.
You may feel like drowning, and that is when self care is important. What can you do for self care that has worked in the past? And if you don't know, ask us here. We can help guide you in this hard time!