Ya, I totally agree. Also, being raised around abuse, your sense of awareness about other people's behaviours are heightened. It's survival instinct. Not that I was physically abused daily but I definitely knew when to step away, be quiet, and do as I was told.. judging by the slightest change in mannerisms, voice tones, facial expressions, and body language. If I didn't I'd get yelled at or harmed in some way.. and often by the overbearing older sister. I'm definitely still in tuned now that it keeps me guarded from others. I notice when something is off and can always pick out when my partner is up to something sneaky. So far, 100% of the time I've been right but the suspected reasons haven't always been correct. I just notice behavioural differences and wonder what's going on. It's no fun.
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