Lately, I have wished I could do more for people with donations and doing extra work and stuff. But I simply can't because even though I do plenty of work for the family business, it's a huge fight every time I need $10-20 for something. Last year, my sister yelled "What a f***ing waste of money!" When I bought myself a $10 hair dryer, then she took my hair dryer and kept it in her bedroom for herself to use.

A few days ago, she wanted to give $120+ worth of gifts to people she wanted to impress, but denied me a simple request for $20 for something I needed. So I objected to her giving gifts (of products I had made for the family business) when the business can't afford to pay me $20 for many weeks of work. My sister called me selfish and screamed all sorts of threats and insults.

The fact is, we are short of money because she spends so much on her dog. She even spent an extra $50 this month on top of hundreds of dollars of vet bills because she's been popping her dog's prescription drugs and ran out early so she had to buy higher priced ones locally. I'm just so pissed at the hypocrisy. She justifies all her spending as necessary but if I want to buy 1-2 small things a year, she calls me entitled and labels me a toxic narcissist.

So now I keep seeing things on the news and wishing I could help out, but I don't even have enough resources for my own survival and that makes me really mad. Every day, I make a wish that my controlling sister would die and I could continue in the business that I worked hard to build and actually have some kind of life without listening to a screaming idiot every day.