I was supposed to do an exam today but they released a last minute extra date for tuesday, which i signed up for.

T has been doing this thing where I'm supposed to call him before a session. I called him yesterday he missed the call, but immediately called me back within maybe 2 mins.

I went loopy and burst into tears. Told him that I was quitting therapy anyway and didn't care and was going to see another T.
I chose to hang up. Then called him back 7 mins later.
He went on about how maybe I wasn't trying hard enough- looking for distractions by making small talk.That maybe I felt humiliated by him.
That I wish I didn't react like this.
He tried to get me to see what I was feeling.
Overall I don't think it was a good session, but he didn't let me leave until trying to calm me down by making fun of his own hair and asking if I was okay.

I messaged asking for a extra session then said never mind.

The truth is I'm lower than I've been by far. If I get through till tomorrow - 2 years no