Dear darkskyy,

I just read your post but sadly I do not have the knowledge, experience or wisdom to know how to help. You have been through so much and are still going through so much and it is all just utterly heartbreaking. Hopefully others here with more insight will be able to offer you better words than my poor words. You deserve so much better than what you have received in life! So very, very sorry that I was unable to helpful to you. Sometimes I wish I could be helpful to others but don't know how.

Sincerely yours, -- Yao Wen