Not annoying; I'm just worried about you. You seem so anxious and it sounds like the only solution to the anxiety is to be with someone which is not easily done. Do you think you are feeling this because you are anxious or because you are having a mood episode?

Either way I think your therapist and/or pdoc need to know about the anxiety and fears you are having because they are disrupting your life. When I go to my pdoc I have to do a computer assessment thing that asks a bunch of questions about symptoms and then how much they are affecting your life. In your case it sounds like the severity may be worse than you'd rate the symptoms. I've had that happen before and it is disconcerting for sure. But whatever the cause you need to feel better.