Thank you all. It's so good to have people who really understand what it is like to be desperate for a med and trying to doing anything to make it last.

It's funny but I'm so relieved that i can feel some of the depression I've been making myself ignore drifting up to the surface. Too bad as the Emsam won't be here for a while. I may treat myself to 2 days of new patches though. I'm fine, just noticing I've been forcing myself to ignore reality.

I do wish that the hospital were closer and psych open so I could get them a little faster but that's just the way it is.

Mostly I"m just SO RELIEVED. We need to have a party.