It's like pretty much the end of Lent, and I did what I set out to do---not SH during Lent. But now I'm not in a good headspace at all and I want to just throw away all my progress. I'm hurting and I'm depressed and I don't care anymore. Maybe I was stupid to think I could make a life changing change in my life regarding SH. I'm going to be stuck doing this forever....

Okay, enough pity party, but I am having a hard time. I want to SH. People are telling me I'm doing so well, and I am in that I haven't SH-ed but I AM NOT doing well. I'm in a very bad headspace today.