Hi Bill,


It's good, in some ways, it's really good. It's a commitment I made to God and have kept it. And I'm glad that I did because although God does not require that one makes an oath, if one does make an oath to God, one by darn better keep it. So that feels good.


But overall I'm feeling defeated instead of full of joy. I'm feeling depressed. Let down. I feel like I can't go to my friends again this week and tell them I'm struggling. I've already gone to them, three days I think. IDK what is wrong with me. Thoughts are invading my head. I'm trying to praise God through the situation. I want to isolate. I want to be self destructive. I'll feel better for a short time but then I know I'd feel pretty bad. I've got to keep it together so I don't spiral out of control. MI sucks.


HUGS Kit