[QUOTE=Snap66;6814793]I wrote this some time ago.

What do you mean when talking about distractions?

I want to change, I really really want to, but no matter what change I tried to make I would end up right back where I startes while learning nothing. My problems lie with myself, my looks, my intelligence. I dont know how to change any of that. When it comes to character it is pretty much the same. There is nothing special about me.
Im a lousy at conversations and small talk. When talking with someone I barely know, it never works. I will freeze up and just say yes or smile like an idiot.