Boy I can sure relate to that. One of the reasons I've been so reluctant to find a therapist is that, especially compared to me, they're all SO YOUNG. And I just couldn't bring myself to talk about some of my stuff with someone who could well be my child... or even my grandchild! But then if I were truly honest I'd have to say I doubt I could do it even if I could find a therapist my own age. The humiliation meter would be off the chart!

Good luck with hiding your stash underneath those Christmas sweaters. I myself don't have anything to hide any more. But I did... for years & years & years. So I know all about that. Looking back I wish there could have been another way. But realistically there probably wasn't. I hope that, in your case, you'll be able to find a way to bring your interest in diapers out into the open. I know lots of people probably find wearing diapers as an adult to be weird. But there's a whole ABDL community out there for whom it is simply a natural expression of who they are. And, at least to me, there is a lot of comfort in simply knowing one is not alone.