I wish i could talk more about everything. Its not easy for me, even to type this. Feeling aroused is like a trigger for me, i ****ing hate it. I don't masturbate. I do watch porn to help with the feeling but i watch for about 2 min and feel disgusted and eveything kinda goes away. I tried explaining this to my T but it didn't last long. I wish i could lose my sex drive all together.