Hey guys,
Yesterday I had a really good session with my therapist. I have DID as well as PGAD, or persistent genital arousal disorder, which means I have spontaneous orgasms constantly. I am under a lot of stress so the dissociation is severe right now. I have a lot of sexually compulsive behavior, including compulsive masturbation.

A couple weeks ago I was on the phone with my therapist, we have been having phone sessions for about a month instead of meeting in person due to the quarantine. I brought up the PGAD and how bad it was. I felt very aroused and uncomfortable. My therapist asked me about masturbation and we talked about how it helps. I was so turned on that I masturbated while we were talking about it. I didn't bring myself to orgasm and I stopped when we switched to a different topic.

I confessed this to my T yesterday and to my surprise she was really supportive. She said it made sense that I might need to masturbate right now, rhar we knew it was one of the things that helps and I should do whatever is helpful. She said me masturbating was a way of self soothing and taking care of myself

She encouraged me to masturbate as much as I needed to , even if we were talking on the phone. We had our first video session the day I told her and I didn't touch myself at all then, but I have been fantasizing constantly about what it will be like when I do, how it will feel, whether I will orgasm, just the thought of hearing her voice when it happens is comforting somehow

Should I take her advice and just masturbate whenever, even during therapy sessions? I am desperate for some relief at this point, and she essentially gave me permission. I've had fantasies about things like this for years, and I feel this out of control sexual arousal whenever I think about it. That feels really embarrassing and shameful.

Any advice/feedback, or anyone with a similar experience?