hello and welcome to PC, i can relate to your Mental state mate, i guess everyone who suffers from a form of psychosis can, unfortunetally theres no easy way to deal with such symptoms as the ones of schizophrenia, theres no cure and it will probably need to take strong drugs for the rest of your life, still eating healthy and exercise can improve your mood, also socialize if thats possible, at least u have to try to, hard to say and do after the corona outbreak but there will be better days for everyone, dont lose your hope , theres thousands of people having the same problems as u have, u could also try the PC chat, theres always someone who understands there, just dont let your bad thoughts consuming you, distracting your self with hobbies can also help,just dont give up mate we are many here living the same situation as you do, again welcome be safe