[Trigger warning] ⚠️ Bleeping everything I dunno.

Thanks everyone. I’m struggling still with the flashbacks of finding all the pics. It’s so difficult. My therapist says keep busy. I’m struggling atm to believe her, she makes it seem so easily done because she’s come through it. I try to keep busy. Been planting stuff past two days and trying to organise the garden.
For privacy reasons more than anything. As some of the pics he took were of our neighbours. And we can’t afford to move.
I need to think why am I with him and can I be with him forever.
I think I love him. Still after ten yrs.
I thought I was falling in love with someone else last year when I had a mental breakdown. But turns out I dumped him because his addiction has driven me crazy. And he manipulated me back to the relationship.
After my son nearly died of appendicitis.
He’s raised him since he was one.
He’s had this addiction since pre teens.
I’m making excuses but still I’m so bleeping hurt. To have pics of him w******* in our bathroom up to twice three times a day. Over other women.
I’m devastated.