hi Albert ..

it is very sad about the child

i can understand your pain and the feelings of disconnection you are having... without question trust in others is good to rebuild, but understandably hard for you right now..

i would take some time and evaluate my own personal goals in life right now... like it or not, you are a single person again...

take it easy on others as you view the world around you and if you can, try to remember that life choices put pressure on us all...

it is not a happy place where you are now, but you can get there...

look for your own personal strength now... if it is waning some, that too is understandable... these are some hard blows to take...

try to remember that the things that happen as we move on in our life path have the ability to make us more compassionate and caring even tho we may want to look for shelter for a time and heal... nothing wrong with it.. we all need to do it...

in time you can feel love again, but it will take some growing and understanding..

the things that happen to us are not always deserved or fair... but by rising above the pain, we will become stronger and better equipped to help others on their journey and the cycle of continuing love can grow...

sending my best hope for you... post here at PC as often as you need to.. it is a very good way to unload those feelings and eventually sort it out...