(((everyone)))

Thank you...it was hard to grive because I don't even rember the funeral because of the pain medication I was on for my injuries I got in the car accident. Two weeks of my life are missing from me because I was in a stupor from the pills..I purposley would take more than I needed just so I couldn't feel anything. I honestly wish that I still had those pills just so I couldn't feel anything.

Is it normal to have certain memories blocked after a traumatic experince..like I can't rember the date or year, and ever since the accident I have had problems with time..I get all mixed up and confused. I can't really recall alot of things about the accident either except anger, broken glass, and blood. I don't want to rember yet I do.

The memories get worse and more fuzzy every year but it's coming to bite me in the butt because I had this huge meltdown in January after visting a hospital to see a family member..I didn't sleep for days and I would just cower in a corner in the fedal positon at night. I started hallucanting and hearing voices and when I did sleep I had these horrible nightmares. I have kinda of reclaimed my grip on reality..but if anything triggers those memories of the car accident or other bad memories I kind of go into one of those episodes.