I wish I had an answer for this, because I'm struggling through similar problems myself. I was using my porn addiction to cope for years, but like all things one tries to hide, they eventually come out of the dark, and if they've been hidden there long enough, they can be pretty ugly. So now I'm a month and a half of being porn free, but have yet to find a way to cope with my still very real libido. I'd be lying if I said I don't sometime miss being single and free to take care of myself. Not near enough to go back to that, but still... there's the occasional wistful thought. Being on here and venting a little has helped, though. I hope we both find some answers.