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Originally Posted by weaverbeaver
Like everyone here I am adjusting to online therapy. I have mixed feelings about this. It’s a tad more intimate because you get to see different rooms in ts house and see her up close and personal. I thought I would miss seeing her in person more but I don’t.
Well this weeks therapy session was strange because t was eating her breakfast and she kept looking really close into the camera and it was very intense. I told her it was scary and to please back off, t thought this was funny and laughed.
I liked how t was so relaxed and comfortable with the camera and it reminded me how uncomfortable I am in my own skin.
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Unless you're using a different online platform, Zoom allows you to choose from a selection of artificial backgrounds. Haven't figured out how, but I know the little intro video tells you you can.
With my therapist, I know that he's most likely in his house, but you honestly couldn't tell by looking at what's behind him. It's very generic and could just as likely be a random neutral-colored wall in his house as somewhere in a library or someone else's waiting room, you know.
For me, it's been a bit of an adjustment in that I've had the opposite experience: I've had trouble connecting in the same way and feeling a sense of intimacy. Plus, overall, I've felt a lot more detached and distracted.
Plus, another part of my problem is that if the appointment is right after work, I don't really have time to drive home and there's nowhere at work that I can think of where I'd feel comfortable doing that for fifty minutes, so once or twice I've had to pull over at a rest stop on the highway by work. I couldn't think of anywhere else that I could go and not look sketchy talking on the phone or to myself for that length of time.
And doing it at home — it's better than nothing, but it's impossible for me to get comfortable, I don't want my therapist to see or think what an utter slob I am or that my depression might be worse than I'm sharing, and I feel like anyone can hear everything that I'm saying through the closed door, so there goes privacy.