The ex - or not so ex - vowed to quit drinking. No help. No AA meetings. Sobriety date of 01/26. Fell off the wagon last night and pulled the same "not calling" thing because HE KNOWS I can tell when he's drinking.

This morning it's the I'm sorry's and the I love you's. No doubt in my mind the man loves me but also no doubt that he has a drinking problem worse than the one I have to grapple with myself.

My sobriety date 01/26/08 and still going strong. Am I wrong for trying to do it together?

I've spent 8 out of the past 12 hours crying. I am so hurt and so confused as to what to do. Do I give up completely? Does AA have meetings for us who are recovering but love an alcoholic? I guess I'm just looking for direction here. I find it crazy that I love this man so much but - when it's good it's good and sadly, when it's bad it's awful.

I am having a hard time letting go......and some may say it's my fault for trying to stick it out. Well, then shame on me. I know I can't go through this break alone but I also know he needs help and I cant FORCE him to get it.

I'm just so incredibly sad. My last conversation with him was that he needed to get a game plan and it had better be a good one. I told him I cannot be strong enough for both of us. Should I just really toss my hands up and walk away? I suppose I know my own answer but it just helps to get it out. And then I have read in AA where a lapse may help them learn - so how do I handle that? I'm calling an AA center today to see if there is someone I can talk to.

On the flip side........I'm still chugging right along. Alcohol just doesn't do it for me. I have become addicted to ice cream! LOL.