Its Funny,

When all of this(mental illness) started happening, I was waiting for someone to turn around and say gotya, were just messing with you.

From the people I always believed would protect me to the ex girlfriend who wanted nothing to do with me. Im getting diagnosed with these problems and all I can think about is, is this what people do to people, people engineer manipulation, engineer failure, engineer mental illness.

Now your saying what do you think your special or you don't have a mental illness and suffer from depression?

No... I know I do now.

Tell me your thoughts, sounds like Im pushing or moving blame or being unrealistic but I cant help how I feel.