Very interesting. When I am in depression mode, when my PTSD has been activated, or when I am totally at the end of my rope due to mania + psychosis that is not at that time under control, I ruminate. A ton. I get into negative thought loop pathways, negative neural pathways, that go around and around and around. Very debilitating.

When I do this, I lose all track of time or where I am or what I am supposed to be doing. It is, I suppose, somewhat like a dream while awake, though it never occurred to me to think of it in that way.

I would love it if I had positive loop pathway rumination. That would be delightful. I would like to have one where I daydream about different varieties of roses, say. But I do not.