Hi darkskky welcome to Psych Central. Oh boy, sorry you grew up with parents who hated each other and abused their children too.

What you described of your father doing was VERY wrong of HIM. Even though you were young, you actually did the right thing, when you realized his behavior was wrong you got up and left and distanced from him. So, you do KNOW his behavior was wrong and you did make the choice of saying no to him by leaving and getting away from him. Good for you and NEVER ALLOW yourself to blame yourself for that either. You were just a child and he was the adult and it was YOUR FATHER that acted inappropiatly with you.

It's unfortunate but even one's own parents can be scum. You have a right to explore sexuality on YOUR terms with whomever you like as long as you are not forcing yourself on anyone and the other person agrees to explore with you.